30/12/06

// feeling :: sick
// prayer for :: tmr's svc!

Tmr is the last day of Year 2006! Feels sad. I want to start 2007 good! I duno how la, but I will. Hahaa. BREAKTHROUGH!

Jiacheng gave me a small bear for Christmas! Lol. Zhiyang gave me...a black watch!! Smth that I've always always always wanted to buy! Wow hahaa. I love it. Its so beautiful.

We went for a cg thanksgiving session first, at Changi Airport. Everyone of us won a special "grammy award". It was self made by Catherine. We had categories like Joseph and Ruth...I won the Job one. Lol! I really didnt expect that one.

After she gave the cards to the winners, she explained her reason for the choice. In the explanation for mine, she talked about how I once told her my spiritual life was a bed of roses. She observed things about my life that I myself didnt even notice.

I did not fully agree with the label of Job for myself, because I wasn't that attacked by the devil. At the coming of Mike Connell, God gave me a rhema that eliminated every doubt I had about His genuinty of caring for us.

No matter what the devil attack us with, God will always turn things around and somehow, some way, we'll end up closer to Him.

I loved this. He gave me this sentence at the first time I knelt before God in church during the manifestation service. I was crying for my sister, that she had to go thru such a trauma at her age. I felt that God was unfair.

I had a nasty thought. I thought that God had purposely made her go thru such a situation, and He can manipulate that to bring her closer to Him. Belle was hugging my shoulders and praying in tongues for me. It was then that it struck me.

Since that day, I never again allowed myself to fall for such "traps". It was because of the precious rhema from God that I never let myself dwell on setbacks and allow failures to pull me away from God. I always looked forward to how God will turn it into a situation when it will benefit me.

Because of this, I rarely let trivial stuff affect my perception of God. I learnt to love God more and move closer to Him. Thats why....It may seem as though I havent lost anyth to other ppl out there. Oh, I have lost many things since my verbal confession that my spiritual life was sunny. But God seemed to bless me with so much more! That I think that I havent lost anything at all!

But as I think about it, yea its somewhat similiar to that of Job. Just that I hope devil wont tempt me to stray from God as badly as he did to Job =/ but God wont allow a temptation that I cannot overcome!

The second half of 2006 was fantastic for me because God had His hand in it!

I thanked God so much in svc today. No words and no amount of thank yous could suffice for what He gave me. I looked at Jiacheng and Zhiyang in svc today. They were happy and they jumped during praise and lifted their hands in worship. God gave me such a wonderful family. Church really is my home.

Since the day I gave my life to Jesus and devoted myself to serve W271, I've been seeing breakthrough after breakthrough. Especially in family. I shared tt during one of the cg outings at East Coast. Catherine n Alvin gave me a chance to share to everyone.

The first day I stepped into City Harvest, the first song they sang was Destiny. Up till now, I love it.